Thursday, May 19, 2011

Cold, Bleak, Gloomy

Cold, bleak, gloomy
My mood, the weather, the atmosphere.. it's all been one of the same

Everything here feels ... empty
Taiwan isn't the same without my grandpa
It's as if he took the very essence of Taiwan when he left

We said our final goodbyes to Ahgong Wednesday morning

From the 26 years of my life on this earth, that was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
There was a moment when the different generations took their turns kneeling and bowing in respect to my grandfather that tore my heart to a million pieces. Watching my uncles, aunts and mother kneeling in unison with their heads touching the floor and backs heaving with sobs while the funeral conductor read their last words to their father still brings tears to my eyes... even as I write this.

When our entire family was kneeling and bowing to our grandfather over and over again I was so overcome with grief, love and respect for him and my family. Ahgong was always the glue to our family and will continue to be... 

And that itself is a testament to how amazing of a man and person my Ahgong was.

... I miss him terribly.

[Battery running low... more later.]

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