Monday, April 25, 2011

* Because I Knew You *

I .. can't even begin to translate what I'm feeling into words now.
But this song is on constant replay at the moment...




It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you

I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good.




With every bit of what I'm made of, I love you Ah Gong.
Thank you... for .. everything.


I don't know how ... or when ... I'll ever be ready to say goodbye
but I'll do it like we've always done every time we leave each other...

*
with a hug

I'll see you soon again

and

i love you

*


rest in peace Ah Gong.


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Not Ready...

I wasn't going to write an entry about this, but I don't know how else to release everything I've been feeling since I've heard the news. I figured blogging has never let me down in the past so here I am. I apologize in advance that this has nothing to do with my business but it's still apart of me... and that's all the reason I need right now.

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In the back of my mind, I always knew this time would come. And no matter how much I tried to prepare myself, I knew I would never be ready when it finally came around.

To be completely honest, I don't know what to do with myself. I try to go about my days as normally as I can as to keep my mind preoccupied the best I can. But once I'm alone with my thoughts, I feel nothing but immense sadness. Every inch of my heart aches because there's not one single thing I can do to change anything. The only option I have is to accept this inevitable reality and I .. just can't.

I'm not ready.
And I don't think I ever will be...




I love my Ah Gong too much