Isn't it tiring? To always be fighting. To always be angry. To always be proving something... whether to yourself or to someone else. To always be holding onto something either out of obligation or guilt.
Sometimes I find myself reverting back to old habits or turning into a person I really dislike. And it just happens! I let life get to me. I let my insecurities take over. I allow all that to take control of my feelings and dictate how my day will go. MY precious time goes into exerting all this negative effort to form more negativity into an endless cycle of negativity. It's exhausting and overly dramatic.
As much as I preach positivity, I know first hand how easy it is to fall back into worries, questions that have no answers, and making your problems bigger than they should be. But what I've learned is that it's a daily choice, many times moment to moment choice on how we react and respond. Am I going to get mad about this or not? Am I going to sit and sulk or.. not?
It does sound too simple but honestly, it's like learning an instrument or picking up a hobby. It takes A LOT of practice AND focus to be a pro. But you gotta start somewhere. I am definitely not a pro but I have tasted the success of achieving this mentality for a long period of time and it was heaven. And life became simple and beautiful in every moment. Seriously. Every moment.
Eating with friends and looking around feeling like a million a dollars to be surrounded by good people and laughing over the silliest things.
Driving and feeling the sunlight kiss my face and knowing how lucky am I to enjoy that little gift.
Watching tv with my parents, joking around with them, helping my mom cook and realizing now that those are the memories I'll cherish forever because one day it will all be gone.
As much as I always want to be writing and encouraging others, I guess my point is that ... it's ok if you look around and find yourself in a rut. Because I am sitting right there next to you sometimes. But when I get up and you're ready too, I promise I'll extend my hand to you and help you up.
Therefore, I'm standing up again.
I am choosing to be happy today. Right now. This moment.
Because it was purposely made for me and I'm squandering it by looking at the glass half empty vs what it has been all along, completely full and overflowing.
Practice and focus.
One last note to all this:
More to come about that soon...
Sending all my love,