Friday, June 19, 2015

* RESPECT GIRLS!!! *

So many times I look at my life now and I really have to retrace my steps to see how I actually ended up here. Even then, sometimes it makes no sense. A bit of luck mixed with a whole lot of passion, willingness to work hard, and to do a lot of things some people wouldn't want to do.

I rarely say this about myself, but I worked hard to get to this point. People think life hands you a gift and that's all there is to that story.




No. Absolutely not. Not this story. I've worked hard and continue to do so. You push through even when you think you can't. That's when you discover you were meant to accomplish bigger things than your dreams now.

The one sole reason that still is the driving force to why I do what I do and why I sacrifice is because I want to connect with you. As a human being. As a friend. As that young, awkward, insecure girl who grew to this woman before you now (who in many senses is still awkward and insecure)



but who has learned so many lessons along the way. And those lessons, I want to help give younger women a heads up to. Because I didn't grow up with an older sister or brother to guide me through some of the tough situations that came about.

I made some really poor choices in the past and learned the hard way. I never regret it because it helped me become stronger, grow a tougher skin, and build true compassion + empathy towards others. But it's never a bad thing to have someone reach out a hand when you're on the ground or to cheer loud for you when you need to hear it the most. I want to be that person!



Regardless of where my personal journey takes me, I will always remember the core of me is built to connect to women. And even maybe school some boys about what we go through as women.




Whether through story telling, blog posting, in person conversations, vlogs.. whatever other means of communication there is... I will reach you. I promise we will giggle along the way, sing our favorite songs with the windows down in the car, be the best wing women, take no shiet from guys, have your back all the way to the end.






xoxoxo,

Christine

Monday, June 8, 2015

* Real Talk *

Late night blogging always helps release buried emotions.

And trust me girl, I've been burying a lot of feelings deeeeeep down. Locked down for another day... another time. But I will be the first to tell you that's super unhealthy. And I'm someone who will go into robot mode when times get tough. Just to get by. Do what I gotta do that day and move on. But what I'm really doing is shutting down. Shutting down on feeling anything and trying to hold everything together on the outside. "To be strong."

But I'm hurting all over. I hate sitting here sounding like a crybaby about my current situation. I know I'm not dealing with even an ounce of what a lot of other people are going through in their lives. To be honest, reminding myself of that keeps me real on my perspective. But what I've learned throughout the years is that even so, I still have to deal with my own stuff in order to be better for myself. If I keep holding on to bitterness, anger, resentment, negativity.. it's only going to hurt myself and people I love. I'm never able to go 110% Christine. And I wasn't built but to give only 110% in what I love and believe in.

Even though I've lived, learned, grown.. I'm still doing it because life never gets easier. I'm not saying life can't be a dream come true, but lessons come from every direction. That's just what's gotta happen for you to get to where you're meant to go. And take on bigger and heavier battles.

People change and evolve. Whether for the better or worse, it's up to you. You can choose to be the hero or become a villain. I want to be the hero in my story. Standing up and taking a hard stand for what I know is true within whether it sounds "nice" or not. I'm a truth teller. And this may be getting personal, but I no longer will stay quiet and nice on the side. Time to keep it real and speak my truth. Because that's how this girl was built.

That I do know moving forward.



Nice version:





Real Talk:




No one puts Baby in the corner